Short but deep cut

You make your first move...

I started to let you in.

Day by day, I'm feeling the connection. I kinda like it.

Like what I always did, I made an appearance. But soon, I have to bid farewell.

Day by day, it seems positive. But week by week, it seems to be negative more.

You backed off. You withdrew yourself from the match.

Said not ready, you apologized. It takes you two weeks to sort out my questions.

You don't know how big impact you have created.

To be honest, every time seeing something new from you, I feel angry. Till now.

I hate myself for being humbled to you. For having the faith I have in you.

I wish my brain were a memory card so I could just burn the file I have created for you.

Alt+shift+delete

Your existence, and ignorance, and extinction; they are slowly stabbing me.each.time.i.reminded.of.you.

To make you feel better, I said I'm cool.

Cool.

Shit.

Sister trip to Bali

I am suppose to do this when I got back to KL but apparently I fell sick terribly and got me like a month to recover back. Bad sore throat, bad coughing, bad flu... Oh my god. There is no word that I could use to describe how terrible I am.

Anyway, back to my story of my sister trip to Bali. We booked our flight back in somewhere around end of June. The first plan was actually to go to Medan (I guess, can't remember) as per what Ee Laine suggested. However we changed the plan to Kuta, Bali instead as what her colleague recommended.

I searched online and realized AirAsiaGo is having promotion to few destination so I quickly browsed and discussed with Ee Laine.... through Whatsapp. What a mess because she was on her way back to KL from JB. The worst part is, the internet goes on and off nonstop for her. BUT! We still managed to book it at the price of less than RM900 per person. It includes 5 nights stay in hotel with breakfast and of course a return flight ticket.

I think it is quite cheap because the hotel is new and it is at the most strategic location. Click here to check out their hotel. It is a new hotel, funky hotel, humble staff, nice pool, good location.

This is the entrance of the hotel.

We requested for a basic honeymoon setup as both of us are hospitality graduated, we really love to see how other hotel do the setup. They actually fold different type of figurines whenever we requested for housekeeping. How can you not love them??

Now, this hotel situated nearby the most famous clubs and bars. We have Sky Garden, Engine Room, etc etc... Too much to be listed here. One of my favorite night club is Engine Room. Their songs are my type of genre. The distance from the airport to the hotel is like around 20 minutes or less. Super near!

Btw, a little tips for you here to grab taxi from the airport. Pre-download the "MyTeksi" or "UBER" apps before leaving to Bali. Setup everything in the app beforehand. When you arrived in Bali, simply just connect to their airport WiFi which is free of charge. Switch on the app and request for a taxi. It is just like UBER. Super cheap and reliable. If you are thinking to get a cab right when you arrived, man..... you have to walk out from the airport to the taxi stand which you have to walk about 10 mins (I read this somewhere before I travel to Bali). If you do not have any smartphone, you can also request airport pick up from your hotel service which quite pricey. I paid about 120,00 rupiah for that. Now, if you really arrange a pick up from the hotel, when you walk out from the arrival hall, don't bother much to look for your name/hotel's name. Just walk out and go to the information counter and tell them that you did not see your driver. Give them the details, they will announce it for you. FASTER than yourself trying to look for your driver which I really did that. Damn!

Now, while you are pulling your luggage or carrying them, you'll be offered a help by stranger to help you carry them. If you really need the help, be prepare to tips them.... in USD or SGD. Avoid if you're going to Bali in budget.

Back to the story.... The hotel breakfast were merely the same food every morning. Bacon, sausages, pancakes, beans etc etc. The only different is their local breakfast. Its either noodle, fried rice or some fried vermicelli. 

After breakfast, we decided to do some little photo shoot around the pool area.

There is more, can check out on our Facebook.... If you're connected with us. Hahahahaha....

Right after, we decided to go to the beach! The beach is not that far, we walked about 10 minutes from our hotel. However, we got "attacked" by numbers of vendors... Massage, Henna, accessories and etc. Terrible. So I bought an anklet so she can stop bothering me while I am have massage. GUYS! MASSAGE BY THE BEACH IS A BAD IDEA!

Trying to show you guys our most "satisfying" face for the camera.

At the meanwhile before Ee Laine got "attack" by the masseur selling her services, I was attack by this Henna Master. Felt like we cheat this master more. LOL 100,000 rupiah for 2.

While looking for dinner.............Look what I found,

Stark's House. I'm a part of GOT now. LOL

You might think they have this sort of little hut by the beach for you but no! They just took out a piece of large cloth for you to lay on. It is fine but not cool when the wind blew the sands on you and you're like having body scrub than massage. In fact, they are not really massaging you but rubbing your body. I felt more kinky when all these beach boys came and look at you getting pampered and these masseur like rubbing your chest. wtf. Expensive, awkward, not even a massage. Duhhh.....

Anyway, we met with our Indonesian friend and we went for a day trip.

We got our driver from the third party which located right outside our hotel. Freaking cheap as they go by 4 ppl in a car for 600,000 rupiah, Of course we did a little bargaining. We went to holy places, volcano, cultural show, batik, and etc.

There's actually more photo, but I would prefer you to experience them yourself!

Go to this restaurant if you're going to Bali! Best satay lilit ever!!!!! Must try their bebek (duck)! That's what they're famous for! Let me show you a sneak peak of their menu.

HHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!!

Let me make you hungry!!!

We went for our next trip then we are hungry again. Time for dinner!

Look at the food and scenery. Best for sunset! Sorry guys, can't recall the name of this restaurant. But if you are keen to know, let me know. I'll ask my Indonesian friend as he is the one recommended us.

Little did we know, time passed so fast till to the end of our trip. So... ya. That's all. Bye. 

Pathetic Chaos

Such pathetic that people compare the situation of Paris between Syria and etc which had a long term war.

First of all, when these countries being attacked, we did show our condolences at the time being but not long-term.

If you wanna show long-term condolences, why not go help out instead of sharing such mean post that people are being conscious of current Paris attack?

Does anyone re-share Charlie Hebdo? World War? Or whatever, you name it.

I believe a week or after, no more sharing of this Paris attack and people start to change their profile picture without having the flag effect. Stop acting like you care for the whole world. If you really care, help those who are suffering from malnutrition, needed shelter, needed medical assistance. There are so many organisation that you can volunteer your help.

Show condolences enough la. Why would anyone wants to create such mean post saying people are one sided and create chaos all over social media.

Now my turn to create chaos for those who created chaos at the first place.

I don't even know there is another happening in other countries like Japan having earthquake. Why? Because no one shares it! IF you share, then I will be aware of it.

See how great is social media can be? No one share, no one knows. One people share, thousands of comment. (excluding my own because I am not that "influence" enough)

I finally got the braces!

Hello!!!!! I finally got my braces on! It was last Saturday. So my next appointment will be in 6 weeks time! It wasn't in so much pain compare to what they did before braces was inserting some sort of rubber to create gaps on the back of my teeth. I had that for a week, I was in pain for 6 days. It was worst than having braces on.

What really hurts me is the brackets are hurting my mouth and plenty of ulcer were formed after I woke up from my sleep. They do give me some waxes to protect it but I tried not to have it on otherwise my mouth will be not used to brackets for like forever. So yeah... Till I can't bear the pain as one of the bracket keep "hooking" up with my ulcer. So yeah, terrible....

And for the pain killer, I had none of it so far. Because I can still bear with it but not when eating. It is so sore when I tried to chew my food. I had soft noodles, porridge and cream soup. That's all... Trying to have all of the food as soft as possible. I literally just swallowed them instead.

My friend who had her braces before, she said I don'f feel much pain probably it was because the wire was not tight enough. I hope not or maybe yes. And yeah, the wire will be change from time to time as I will be having thicker type of wire. Hopefully the pain will be the same!!!

Sometimes I hate myself for going for braces but at the mean time when I think about having pretty smile soon is like, "poof!!" all the bad thought will be gone but it returns when my ulcer got hooked up with bracket again.

Beware of my crooked teeth photos below. If you have any weak heart, please skip this. xD

Well, this was taken when I had rubbers on the back of my teeth. I guess the different is not much tho.

Braces on for first day!

As you can see on the left, there's no bracket there it was because this mini teeth was quite far behind so I have to wait till next appointment to have it on.

Let's see what will it looks like after my second appointment!

Sometimes

I have been searching for some job in France lately... Well, not really lately but ever since I got back from Toulouse. Its really hard to leave someone you love. It is so hard. I've been crying for few nights missing him. The worst feeling ever is to say goodbye in the airport where either you or your partner went in boarding while the another stands outside the gate waving goodbye. You know what I mean?

However, searching job in France is really difficult as you want to be in a countryside, not Paris. Well, I haven't applied yet so I am not quite sure. But whenever I look out for jobs in France is really hectic because they mainly need people who can speak French. Well, unlike in Malaysia if you can speak English, WE WELCOME YOU! But of course if the company has lots of budget to hire an expat.

This is so hard as I could not practice my French because Enric wasn't here and I can barely speak nor understand much. Besides looking up information about employment in France, I read plenty of thought from expat that it is a much to speak French if anyone decided to work in France except Au Pair or nanny job. Well, I need permanent job so I have to study real hard and practice more on my French.

When I found the jobs which do not require me speak French, I would came across some problem. I'm in the mid of my treatment and also my braces. If I move to France, there's many thing I have to redo. I have to look for orthodontist to continue my braces and what are the fees be like! Then I talked to Enric which he had no idea what's gonna be and he have to go for his training. Now this is a big deal. He has 2 training in his 2 years of Masters. So, one of the training must be in oversea. Right now, he found a placement in France which means next training have to be done in oversea. So there's no point for me to stay in France right now. It's like vice versa. I go, he leave. Interesting huh?

But, if there is someone willing to hire me, it would be great. I have not much requirement as I only wants a week more of holiday for my Chinese New Year so I could go home to have family reunion. Service related job would be much preferred... I am like looking for a job by blogging. LOL Sounds so desperate but it looks like what it is tho. Sometimes I feel that why. I'm like "wow, I'm so desperate!"

Just in case there's potential employer pass by, there's a LinkedIn tab on top where you can view my profile. Thanks in advanced. Cheers!

Getting my teeth FIX

Well, remember my smile in this photo because in a week time, braces will be applied. Alligator mouth is coming soon.

Last week just got fixed with some rubber between 4 of my teeth to create the gap. It quite sore on the second day but worst on the third day. Right now is still fine but still feeling uncomfortable with it. Gosh, I hope it will be better by tomorrow!

Now my breakfast time took me longer than before. I can't chew my cereals! Soaked them in milk till it is soggy but still, I am having difficulties to eat them.

Long distance relationship

Oh well, after half year since Enric left Malaysia and back to his sweet home country, I finally traveled to France again after a year. Stayed in Toulouse for about 10 days, we went to Luchon and Albi, nevertheless, the Aeroscopia (the new museum in Toulouse). It was fun though. Hopefully next trip will be December or probably next year. If it happens to be next year, probably it will be more than a year to plan because he will be much more busy in his year 2 Masters, I guess.

However, we still keep in touch most of the time although it were just "Hey, how are you? How was your day? Goodnight & bisous." but we still try to have Skype moment every weekend. How I wish the Skype moment never ends.... What's better is that I wish to have this super power to tele-port myself whenever I want. How great was that? =D

Here's a photo of us, Day 2 in Toulouse having dinner with his classmates. Pleasure to meet him and glad that they're as fun as we had it back then in our Degree. Aww, I miss having fun time with my groupmates!